sang you "favourite girl" and posted it on youtube. sorry baby hahaha

for bleeding your ears.

mmm always wanted to sing a song to a girl,

dedicate one, and mean it and im glad i got to do it for you

sometimes i feel like im being too sappy

too corny

cant help in im crazy over you

do you know... how much i want to kiss you?

i do. fucking bad.

happy 1st month (: 21/09/11

it was eventful, remember?

you got me into tkgs, and you decided to seduce me...

at the back of the rifle range and i totally got fucking seduced cause youre hot like that.

my heart was beating so fast when she caught us

malvina. sigh what was i thinking

im sorry i was off for the rest of the day

i was just too worried

i love you okay.

i wanna sing a song to you someday

im just too shy for that still haha.

hahah i like your friends too

and this wengteng shit.

sorry but i get insecure sometimes.

and i love you with every bit of atom in my body

hi bbyy

my friend said you were pretty

and she hardly says that

i swelled with pride

because youre mine

<3

and because idk what i did to deserve someone so amazing like you

hahah.

went out with you yesterday

actually no, just sent you home

damn it felt good to be in your arms again <3

your hugs. mmmmm

your skin, your smell

gave you a flower.

seriously youre just so beautiful

was on the verge of kissing you

but once again, im wayyy to shy

damn.

i dont know whens the next time ill get to see you.

this really sucks. big time ):

hahaha

kinda funny when the cars honked.

presumably at us. lol.

and i think. im addicted to you.

do you know how much that fucking hurts?

i was crushed.

sad

depressed.

i actually cried in class.

it was tht bad.

at least you kept your promise and told me.

hahah

all the emotions running through me.

man it hurt

i start thinking "am i not good enough?" "where did i go wrong?" "am i that insignificant in your life?"

and it gets the waterworks starting.

and it was only the second time i ever cried in class.

and you not telling me why

anyway. hey baby,

9 days to our first month?

may not seem long to you

but it IS long to me, seeing as to how i hardly make it past a week.

i keep telling you how much i love you. its true

you affect me n every way

when the style of your text changes

i can tell when somethings wrong

and i get hurt

i overreact maybe

i may not be very good in showing my emotions. but one things for sure.

i care.

so much

whenver you talk about cutting

or puking. or not eating

it breaks my heart.

but i dont say anything because i dont want to be too controlling.

but it worries me

and ill do anything to stop it.

anything.

because baby, youre perfect.

and youve gotta know that. okay?

what did i do wrong?!!! ):

like everything you said.. didnt feel sincere.

idk if it was just me.

its just a bad day.

i love you baby

i really do.

i realised ive been counting the days wrongly because i didnt include sunday D:

anyway

you, me and in hand at the beach.

on the sea wall/ whatever. cuddling, doing what were most comfortable doing

in the very comfortable silence.

wind blowing, your hair flying, still looking as beautiful as ever.

it was perfect. you were perfect.

the sound of the waves, crashing against the seawall,

some crabs crawling about...

the afternoon sun...

there was barely anyone around.

im your embrace,

i was nuzzling against your neck.

placing kisses up your jawline

i knew your desire and you knew mine.

but we were both too shy to initiate anything.

our lips would be so close, like how they always were.

but youll always turn your head away, like all the other times.

your scent on your skin.

i think im addicted to it.

my hand were on your hips, constantly travelling up your body and down again.

like how i always do.

your fingers hooked into pockets, pulling me closer into you.

my nose scraping across your cheeks to your ear and i whispered,

"can i kiss you?"

you gulped.

i looked into your eyes for a sign of consent

you were scared, i was too. but i moved closer anyway.

then, your lips caught my bottom lip.

it was a shy kiss, slow, terrified, if felt so good.

it was brief, but there it was, my first kiss.

i caught your upper lip this time,.

there was no urgency.

just taking in the wonders of the kiss

your lips were soft, sweet, didnt taste of the lip balm you said you normally wore.

you shocked me by parting my lips with your tongue

and we just sat there

in tight embrace.

in a slow kiss.

and then, i woke up.

the weird thing is that... i dont want to fuck you.

i would be contented in kissing you, forever.

national kiss day. didnt get to kiss you. sigh.

was fucking horny the past few days.

idek why hahah

still remembering our hugs outside the library.

i miss the warmth, your smell, everything.

hope i get to see you soon.

love you baby

my friends were there too. talk about awkward

but you were as beautiful, as always

haha the way you drive my body crazy when you pull my hips into yours.

when you stick your fingers in my pockets boy it sends me to overdrive

my face buried in the crook of your neck

your thigh between my legs

damn/

i still dont have the courage to kiss you

actually im just waiting for the right moment. girl youre beautiful

im sorry if i over-sex it up sometimes

i love you

"bby dont cry okay? hahah. i swear all i wanna do now is cry. hahaha. why are you apologising. you dont sound dumb. why would i ever go far away. youll never be fucked up. and if you ever were gonna be. well, i dont think id wanna go far away. i dont wanna leave you. i love you too much. hahah. you parents. a bit too harsh eh. but my parents would most prolly say the same thng. bby im sorry i suck at making you feel better. im a loser. haha. just so you know, i really do cry easily. im hurt easily. but its okay. hahaha. used to it ^^. hahahaha. anywaysss! bby im pretty sure i love love you more than... a lot of things. hahaha. ive enver felt this way before, but im only fourteen. hahaha. idk. sometimes im scared this is all a dream and when i wake up, you wouldnt be there anymore. idk how im gonna survive without you. hahahaha. fuck. just make sure yknow i love you okay? a lot. so much words couldnt even describe my love for you. /nods. i love you bby"

i was so touched. when you called me, i had to control my voice so it didnt break.

i love you

i got insecure.

i thought of my past and it was a mistake

when i told you, i thought you'd run

i thought you'll get scared

but you stayed

your text

your tweets

they comforted me

they made me cry, in a good way

i dont know what i did to deserve you

i was such an ass

i love you baby, till the world ends

i want to be with you , forever.

youre my everything.

that i cant be as good as any guys you dated

but i know i love you more

and thats enough to keep me going

you make my world bby.

you make it worth living

happy 2 weeks bbygrl

ill make another post at night

because nobody knows.

its better i guess, because nobody judges

and if our parents knew, we would be screwed

but sometimes it hurts that i cant scream out loud

to tell the whole world that you're mine

i guess the little sacrifices that has to be made.. to prevent the harsh consequences that could fall on us

okay its okay to talk to him

but calling him yours.

like your baby and stuff.

it hurts. because youre mine

and im not willing to share

I really hope he's gay

fuck its painful.

feels like youre not making the effort to meet me

it sucks. bad.

fuck i miss you.

it hurts to miss you.

you wanted to call

but i know i wouldve cried at the sound of your voice. hard.

hey guys. thats my bby(left). and thats me(right).

ive had a little crush on her for the longest time ever. EVER.

since i saw her. hahaha.

ok when i saw her i was like.. "damn this girls fiiine"

then i found out she was 3 years younger than me so i gave up. okay.

but always had this minor crush hahaha

then i guess we started talking? i dont remember how.

i just remember my feelings for her developed.

then we pretended to be together. i think. hahah.

and i remember how i died a little everytime she said

"nads my boyfriend but were not together"

and everytime she got pissed that ppl thought we were together.