was the worst night of my life.

i started crying initially not because of the formspring questions,

never knew that existed yet.

cried because i missed you

because i was thinking into the future and i saw that you'll eventually leave me

i got scared. i just wanted to hear your voice.

but you didnt pick up.

and i cried harder.

then i saw it, that question. and as i read it, it felt as if my heart broke

i didnt know who was trying to sabotage our relationship.

i didnt. and what was written, wasnt true.

i thought i would have lost you that night.

i still wouldnt know if ive lost you,

maybe i have,

maybe i havent

but i certainly hope i havent.

but if i didnt, i wouldnt know how to make it right

i wouldnt know if your trust towards me broken

i dont know what that night broke.

i just hope your love for me

remains as strong as ever.

because i love you

and it overwhelms me.

i dont want to lose you.

i spent the whole night, crying.

i was in my mothers room, thank god

or i mightve been dead this morning.

i wanted to end everything last night. i really did.

but no matter what, i love y ou.